To differentiate it from our I-love-this-dog tributes we regularly post here.
Spirit, my old black dog, was put to sleep last night when my brother (who believed himself to be her owner) came home and found her unable to stand. Her Cushings caught up with her; her pancreas was inflamed past the point of function.
Spirit was my first sport dog, and the dog who taught me what dog sports are. Never having a formal class, or even real equipment at home, she could run a full agility course. At her fitness peak, she could high jump more than twice her height, her record being 47 1/2 inches. She won a frisbee distance and accuracy competition at 8 years old, having learned to catch a frisbee in the air by realizing it was the best way to keep it out of the other dog's mouth- get there first.
Spirit earned her CD title with ASCA and with the Mixed Breed club. With her help, I won Best Handler at the MBDC Nationals. In 4-H, she was a wonderful Showmanship dog, helping me earn the Grand Junior title at our county fair, and two years in a row, being the ONLY mixed breed dog to make it to the Showmanship Finals at the State Fair.
When I was 16 we went to a local "pet dog show" fundraiser for a shelter, with competitions throughout the day, and a "top dog" award given at the end. Spirit won almost everything she was in, the barking contest, most obedient dog (she could heel backwards, long before Rally Obedience made that commonplace), best trick (I can no longer remember what she did- she had more tricks than any dog I've met), everything. At the end of the day they declared her Top Dog; we were interviewed for a radio show and she was awarded a giant bed, big enough for both of us, and a trophey taller than her, with a German Shepherd on top, which I still have.
Flyball was her passion and mine for several years. At her first flyball practice, she learned the entire course and ran it without any help. Years of running in the 5.8-second range earned her a Flyball Champion-Gold title, just a few hundred points shy of the coveted flyball master title when she was taken away from me. Her record runs were under 5 seconds, the mark in our club for an A-Team dog.
More than all of that, Spirit was my pet and companion. Her goal in life was to make sure my little blue Ranger truck never left without her. She would sneak in if I left the door open for even a moment. The fence had a loose spot over by the gate, and if I drove away without her, she would slip under and sit outside the gate, better to hear me returning. Most of the time, she heard the truck and was back in the yard before I saw her, but sometimes I'd catch her out.
All 45 pounds of her was a pretty scary dog when she was mad. Driving home from Canadian flyball one time, 2 am at a deserted rest stop, I took her to the bathroom with me, as I always did. I pushed open the door, looking down at her, and it was her head snapping up that made me look. A man was moving across the women's room toward us. Spirit pulled forward and went "BAROWROWROWROW" while I backed out and slammed the door. We raced to the car and I let her jump in to the front seat to get away faster. We weren't being followed, but she watched the building intently in case she had another chance to bark him down.
As a trainer, I would never recommend a dog with her sparkfire temperment and willingness to put teeth on people if her feet were touched for a home with small children. Yet, we moved in with Maggie when the kid was 7 months old. The kid stepped on the dog, looked down her ears with flashlights and practiced walking her on leash. Spirit was neverendingly tolerant of the toddler, waiting patiently for her tiny hands to grasp the ball, and fetching it religously, even if it fell out of Maggie's hand backwards.
Tally was also a puppy when we moved in all moved in together. When Tally went through her naughty phase, chewing up a nice wool coat and crying when left in a crate, the phrase "Can't you be more like Spirit?" was uttered. I then thought of the time Spirit was crated in the fully-packed car, and pulled my mother's new down jacket through the bars and chewed a large corner off. And the fact that Spirit was perfectly content in a crate, as long as I was in her line of sight. If I left the room, she would whine incessently.
As Tally grew into a mature, well-behaved terrier (at 8 months) who could be left in the car and not eat my breakfast sandwhich if I put it on the dash and told her to leave it alone while I ran back inside for my hat, only to find Spirit had, in the 2 minutes I'd been warming up the car, jumped the baby gate into the pantry and eaten an entire bag of chocolate chips, the phrase "Can't you be more like Tally?" became commonplace. Even as I spoke it, I knew that Spirit was exactly who she needed to be, and exactly who I wanted her to be.
I moured her loss three years ago when my brother took her back from me with the misguided notion that he still owned a dog that had been in my possession for almost nine years. Every time I've seen her since then I've told myself it's a bonus, more than I thought I'd have, and it was a good thing. But it was also the worst of both worlds- I didn't have her, and yet I still had to watch her get old.
The nine years I had with her were worth it, though. There is no value greater than the love and bond we have with our dogs for the short time they are with us.